I have struggled with depression and anxiety for over thirty years. During the beginning phase of my condition, I had little to no awareness it was a problem. I was a hard worker and there is nothing wrong with that but I was filling the emptiness of my heart with achievement.
I was very successful in social work and monetarily, and people could see my success. I became a Director of Human Services and did quite well leading the organization and sought recognition for the initiatives we were involved in. This is the opposite of what Christ called me to do. He gave me the gifts of talents and skills to lead but I was more concerned about glorifying myself.
Looking back some of these things I was not doing for the right reasons. My attitude was, “Look at what I have done”, rather than being grateful to God for my gifts. Today I make an intentional effort to do what God wills me to do not because I am filling my heart and soul.
I know there are decisions I make presently when I still put myself over God. My intentions and actions in front of my love for God – I continue to learn from this and yet is a struggle. I still seek people who recognize what I love to do, so it is a struggle doesn’t mean it isn’t. I realize what this means now is I can do better.
I don’t want God to do my will. I don’t want God on my side, I want to be on God’s side. This is one example of my effort to manage my mental health condition and repeatedly place trust in God.
The Peer Recovery Group I facilitate on Thursday evenings from 6:00 – 7:00 p.m. is a 12-step spiritually based program. https://superhumanbeing.net/thursday-zoom-event/
What motivates you to do the things you do in your life?
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Larry
email: ljw@superhumanbeing.net
website: https://superhumanbeing.net/