Humility in recovery is about letting go of ego and pride, embracing the truth, and adopting a sober view of ourselves and our place in the recovery process. I want to give you a snippet of what is going on with my mental health and mood right now.
Seven days ago, I noticed a slight dip in my overall mood. Little things began causing me irritation that otherwise would roll off my back. Some examples include our dog barking, responding to my father’s needs, and the trouble with my stomach.
I feel sad and anxious inside, which causes a voice inside my head to inform me of what attitude I need to take. Here are some of the thoughts: “Are you ready to have a deep depression?” or “Think bad about yourself” or “Stay in the darkness, not in the bright light”. I find these thoughts drain me of joy and peace.
I am unsure what is triggering this right now. We did have an upsetting situation in our family on Saturday. However, my mental health condition was declining even before the incident on Saturday. What do I need to do to take care of myself?
- Continue attending my support groups.
- Be mindful of the moment. When mental health wants to direct my life, I refrain from feeding it in any way.
- I will reach out to my psychiatrist if these symptoms continue for 2 weeks or longer.
- See my therapist.
- Taking a break from making any major decisions.
- Rest, similar to when I have a physical illness.
- Continue connecting with people.
My ego tells me to push through it and keep my feelings to myself. I don’t want to burden people with my inner anguish. Recovery is a humbling experience for me, a reminder to radically accept my state of mind. I realize it is temporary, but truth be told, I don’t find much consolation in those words.
St. Dymphna (Patroness of those afflicted with a mental and nervous disorder), pray for me and all those with mental health and substance abuse conditions. Provide us hope, healing, and health. Amen
SuperHuman Being
Peace
Larry
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